My Love

most of you who read this know that i go out with a girl named Jess and i lvoe her very much. the bad part as some of you may know is that we live about a whole world apart... we met on playing an online game called ragnarok online last year around march, at first we started off as friends who hung out with the same people and gradually we moved farther and farther away from them until it was just the two of us. from there we stuck together and gradually developed feelings for one another. we then started to play on another where we had our ups and horrible downs..well 1 down really XD but ut was kinda a big down. we split up for a while and got back together arround november and going strong =D. a friend was at my house recently and he saw me type "i love you" to jess and he says to me "do you really" and i reply simply "yup" and he goes "how do you know?" well at the time i was too lazy to explain it but i guess i will now. first you hafta understand my past history with females has been kinda bad. long story short they've all been for a lack of a better word jerkfaces nuff said(maybe i'll write some stories about it later).
anyways i made a comment about not having emotions earlier, cause from what i understand friend A cheated on friend B with friend C and friend B called my friend all sad cause friend A won't talk to her about why he's hangin out with friend C after friend A cheated with her b4. which has my friend all mad and i was said "people with emotions are funny" but i meant it like if someone did some shxt like that to me thay wouldn't matter to me no more XD cause it's obvious they don't care about me nuff said once again.i have emotions but they don't allow to me to do irrational things like chase someone who's cheating on me and gets mad when i ask them simple questions. anyways tho i love Jess because she's nice and when she's not mad at me for soemthing she good to me. she's easy to talk to and she plays RO(gamer girl <3). we have alot in common. One of the biggest reasons i'm so attracted to her is because she has good morals and if she's wrong she'll apologize and she'll forgive me if i do something wrong most of the time...sometimes?...well she apologizes =P. why didn't i find a girl here then? plain and simple most of them want the "bad guy" type from what i noticed or if not that, most i think have no sense of responsibility, like if they cheat on you all the time they would prolly blame me for not doing something right. *shurgs* i don't feel like dealing with all that it's troublesome, if i had the choice between a girl i could touch that was horrible to me or a girl i couldn't touch that was good i'd choose Jess obviously.What if i meet a girl that sees that i'm a good guy in the future? don't care, i already got the girl i love and will love forever i'll work hard so i can see her and be the great man she deserves... nuff said...